My Life, My Story

这 是我外婆，虽然已经不在了，但我还是很想念她。婆婆是个没念过书的人， 但你知道吗？我的名字--静枫，却是这个没受过任何教育的外婆所取的，难以相信，我总是觉得我婆婆如果现在还活着，她也是不可能得到老人痴呆症的，一个连 煮的汤里面放了多少粒鱼丸都算过，谁吃多了也清清楚楚的人 =.= 怎么可能会患上呢? 她的脑袋分分钟钟都比你跟我还清醒.....

小时候, 婆婆总爱说她以前的"风光" 史给我们听, 每每我都会问她:" 婆, 这又是几年前的事了?" 近者几年前, 离谱的话就是二三十年前......天, 女人的记忆力不容勿视! 多少年来得恩恩怨怨她还记得一清二楚......我只能写个"服"字给她.

要 数婆婆的总多的故事中最威的事, 应该就是想当年, 外公在外搞大别人的肚子, 身为村长, 也就是外公的爹, 大义灭亲, 一声喝令就要将当年所谓的"奸夫淫妇" 浸猪笼 (不要以为戏里才会有这一幕哦, 婆婆的那个时代, 村长的话就是法律) , 外婆当年就像戏里常上演的那样, 哭着求村长让那女人嫁进来才保住他俩人的性命......厚, 这根本就是粤剧残片, 活生生的例子嘛.

(Sorry..due to some problem occured to my laptop, i can only write eng for short.)

18th Dec 2007, I received a call early in the morning, my grandpa, the "ex-husband" of my grandma was passed away, it was surprised me for just a second. U may think that I’m not a good granddaughter, but you can’t expect too much from a granddaughter to cry like hell for a grandpa who only met once in her life of 21 years. I was already 19 years old when i first saw him, at that moment, i really don’t know what to say, not greeting him as "grandpa", not even a smile, i was just thinking that: "Man...my mom really look like her dad, just like copy and paste." That's it. My grandma and grandpa were divorced very long time ago since my mom was very young, that's make our family's relationship with grandpa getting far away when my grandma had decided to move from Perak to Penang. What i remembered about my grandpa was that he used to give a gold necklace to my eldest sis and my bro, but not at me and my second sis, with no reason given. I thought maybe my mom never tell him, u know, in the old time, people are shy to tell others that they are having a daughter "again".

I remembered that when i told the news of my grandpa's death to my grandma, her react was quite surprised me further than the news of my grandpa's death, it's because she was so calm, and she just asking me when he did he die actually, meanwhile, she remained silent, the feeling was like it was the death of my neighbors, but not her ex-husband, the one who used to walk into her life.

18th January 2008, my grandma passed away on that day, after one month time from my grandpa's death. It's was a fate, a fate that they are supposed to be together, even thought they were already divorced for 50 years+ (according to my grandma), and somehow i did believe that my grandma is still loving my grandpa, it just, too many things happen in between and they have to separate with each other for "temporary". Yet, i was still crying like hell, for the pass away of my grandma, i really can’t accept the truth, the feeling that you saw your love one dying in front of you. It was an afternoon time, my grandma suddenly lost her consciousness, her fake tooth was loose, and my aunt, yielding at me, asking me to take her tooth right away. I got panic, my hands was shaking when i took away her tooth, and my tears was dropping, i knew something bad was happen, but i was too hard to accept it, deep inside my heart, i was still hoping maybe she is just fainted or what, other than the one i could hardly accept. After about half an hour the rescue of doctors, the lady doctor come out from the curtain, telling my aunt that my grandma heartbeat was stopped, and they already tried their best. My bro and i was shocking, crying beside of grandma, i was yielding at her, asking her to wake up, but everything was just impossible. "Why would you leave us? Mom was just passing for about one year, how can you do that?" from the bottom of my heart, i was asking, with no words.

One thing that i never regret is that, i have successfully bring her for a hair cut and perming and also visiting my aunt, by driving her using my old Tiara, one month before her death. Why would i do that? I think the possibility is that i realized that my grandma was getting old and weaker, her legs was no longer strong than she used to have and she was getting sick easily. U know what? I used to have a dream, a dream to have my own car, driving my grandma go around wherever she want to go, my heart was pain every time i saw her sitting lonely in the living room, without coming to the outside world for years except for the appointment with the general hospital, but this dream can only be reached after I'm graduated. I understand well the feeling of being lonely and I had made my mind that I have to drive her out this time, she can’t wait anymore. And I did it.

I bought her new undergarments, but she never had the chances to wear it, she told me that she want to keep it for chinese new year but she can never make it anymore, never. I was angry of her, angry of her stinginess, why every time must keep for later time, i bought for her because i found that her panties was all old and loose, and if in CNY, they are all broken already, I can buy her new one again. My angry ends with the tears drop from my eyes. "How stupid you are", i wondered, "How can I tell you that I was actually "sayang" you so much?".

"Love your mama, love whatever that you have right now", that's what i always wanted to tell my friends around. It's really a wonderful thing to have family, the one will cook for you every time you come back from school or work. The one that keep nagging you, but still sewing your broken clothes back behind. And when she is asking you, "when will you come home?", meaning that she really miss you at home, and she means it.

我可爱的婆婆-------ends.